For months, I had received numerous auspicious signs about the new lunar cycle (Tibetan and Chinese New Year) which coincided with the dates of my February 13-20, 2021 retreat in Mexico. I was prepared for all kinds of woowoo— more kundalini awakenings, visions, channeling, ghost encounters, magical energy— something, anything that would be a powerful acknowledgement to the end of a turbulent Year of the Rat. Leading up to it, I was so caught up in self-importance that I ignored my feelings of anxiousness, stress, and tension. The need to know. The need to have. The need to be. It was a lesson in many parts and taught me to let go of what I was holding onto.
... In the end, there was no victory, no defeat. Just a quiet closure to a tumultuous 12 month lunar cycle. No celebration. No magic. No mystery. The joke was on me. Oh universe, how clever you were. Guiding me here, dropping breadcrumbs that I gobbled up with eagerness.
Months of buzzing anticipation and endless curiosity, but there was no show. The curtains were closed. The theatre was dark.
I must have gotten the date wrong on the invitation. I know that I am meant to be here.
And then I see it. My part in this. The clinging. The folly.
Too close to see where I was. Too late to discern what was real and what was false. The building energy past its peak and now turning toward the opposite way. A falling apart. A falling away. A strange sense of liberation. I had set myself free.
I'm grateful that the retreat itself (and all three retreats that I’ve held this year) far exceeded my expectations. The joy of togetherness. Laughing til my sides hurt. Heartfelt sharing. Inspiration. Insights. Healing.
I’m happy to announce that I will be the resident yoga teacher at Beyond Retreat’s second and smaller location in Puerto Vallarta. The venue will be a 5 bedroom villa in a residential gated community in the Marina neighborhood, a short stroll away from the beach. The maximum group size is 8 participants. The 8 day retreat is designed as budget luxury and casual with two yoga classes per day and one guided hike to the waterfalls. For the time that I will be there (March 27-April 17, 2021), I’m adding in some extras: daily meditation and broader wellness modalities instead of just an afternoon yoga class (TRE, QiGong, restorative yoga, family constellation, inner dance energy work, laughter yoga). My intention is to create a place where we practice “living” in a conscious community— being present, accountable, contributing, and communicating honestly and openly. Visit my website for more information here.
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Tammy is a location independent yogi.